Today is an interesting day. I got hired to a new job after unceremoniously walking out of my last one. In the grand scheme of things, it probably wasn’t the smartest decision financially, because I could still be making money right now and have another job coming down the pipelines, but I think this time to myself is good for me. Time is a precious commodity and its definitely nice to have some to myself. I want to be more consistent in those practices that will help me to lead a better life. I read about some major athletes diets this morning on medium and I think that they actually didn’t sound too crazy. Well, except for Tom Brady. His diet sounded fucking diabolical lmao. I want no parts of that at all. But I think that as long as I make sure I don’t eat too many friend foods, drink lots of water, and cut down on sugar, I should be in pretty good shape. Getting rid of sugar will definitely be my toughest to do. I have quite the sweet tooth and whereas I used to not notice my body craving it, now I definitely can. It used to feel natural to end a meal with something sweet, and it still does, but now I’m mindful of it. It’s a thought that comes to my mind. I still normally succumb to the desire but the mindfulness of it is certainly a start. Moving forward I’m going to do my best to not overindulge. I don’t think I could totally cut it out of my diet, but I can certainly make healthier decisions on what to snack on and not snack as much. Starting slowly and working in a more positive direction is a powerful philosophy and one worth trying. I need to start reading more consistently as well. Reading, writing, drawing, all of that stuff. I’m too streaky with it. Lol just like my jumper on the basketball court. When I start hitting, I usually can’t stop. But a lot of times, I won’t even get a shot up. I’ll keep putting it off. Just trying for ten minutes a day on each of my goals will set me up to go a long way. I guess I feel like I have so many hobbies that its hard for me to give them all attention. But there’s certainly a way. I’m not comfortable with setting up specific times to do certain things, but maybe that’s something I need to try. I usually try and go work with my feelings on deciding when to work on my hobbies, but the thing about feelings is they fluctuate. They aren’t solid enough to make you do something right when you feel like it, and next thing you know, the feeling fades. At the end of the day, I believe it is my hobbies that will one day be lucrative and allow me to maintain personal agency. I could certainly at least draw everyday, its really not that big of a deal for me to pull out the pad and put something down on paper. I gotta stop making excuses to not do it, and instead look for reasons to do it. I been working on the same piece since the start of 2020 and while I’m not mad about it, I know even if I can’t necessarily work faster, I can work more often. I’ll put it down for a couple of weeks before I go back to it. If I just committed like four hours a week, I’m sure I’d see a big difference in the volume of work I’d be able to put out. Just like if I start reading when I become tempted to mindlessly scroll instagram, then I’d be running through books at a much higher rate. I have many books to read and get to and thought once I stopped taking notes as I read them, then I’d get back to reading more often. However, I’m still making excuses and putting it off. I end up on my laptop or listening to music. I think I have to retrain my brain again to stop looking for information in bite size pieces. I’ve become so used to reading articles, even extremely well written, thought provoking ones, aren’t going to old up to the just general solidness of a complete book.
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